Thursday, May 14, 2009

Today.... not so much

So this morning on my way to work I got an effing speeding ticket from a dude that looks just like senor estrada over there & rode a copocycle.... last week some douche gave me a ticket for expired registration (it wasnt expired! I was waitin for the effin stickers to come in the mail) soooooooooo today started off awesome. Additionally my mind's a mess, I'm tired, dont feel good, & am discouraged with "stuff". That said.... it's my own fault. I shouldnt have been speeding... I should have sent for those stickers earlier.... I can't control shut-down mode for my brain but I can control what/who I let bother/affect me.... so pretty much complaining about my predicaments is retarded... I'm the one that created them in the first place. As for today's mental meltdown, I think its healthy that we get discouraged & lose hope every now and then because then The Man gets to remind us of everything good in our lives so we quit bein sissy's... Sometimes situations suck. Right now I've got one thats just wearing me down. But I'm learning patience & to put my logic aside & just do what feels right. My mind screams at me to do one thing while my heart & el Senor tell me to do another... adversity... such a negatively associated word... but it's not, it's what makes us who we are. Its not what happens to us but how we react to the adversity that shows our true desires & character. I bet tomorrow is going to be much better than today, but if not, I'm sure I'll survive... getting through the tough times makes me appreciate this life so much more, but not knowing how long its gonna take is the hardest part for me... buuuuut I'm blessed, I know it. "Sometimes the very moments that seem to overcome us with suffering are those that will ultimately suffer us to overcome." soooo I guess my point is... don't let the bastards grind you down amigos.... buck up, pay your dues & endure. Things dont always work out the way you want them to, but if your hearts in the right place & you are tryin to do your best you'll be ok. Just don't expect anything or chances are you're going to be dissapointed more often than not...