Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Selective Socializing.

I may or may not have achieved Zen. Life is good, crazy busy, but really good. Lately I've had this overwhelming feeling of inner peace & contentment and I know exactly why. I don't give a crap. Seriously. I could care less about social circles, stupid run of the mill conversations with people I just met but will most likely never talk to again, sharing my life stories with strangers, etc... I guess it could just be selfishness manifesting itself as what my friend recently called my "antisocial behavior" but whatever. I like how my life is, I like being able to do what I want when I want. I like not having to deal with other peoples drama or listen to them babble about things I could care less about, I like coming home from a long day at work & being able to read a book/watch tv/do whatever with zero distractions, I like my life. period. I'm not antisocial... more like... socially selective. I don't like going to stupid mass gatherings (usually consisting of lame or cheesy activities) full of marriage-hungry singles that seem to only care about what I do for a living, what I look like, hooking up, or what I can do for them. It's also interesting how quickly people can suddenly take interest when professions are discussed. And no, I'm not just talking about girls, guys do it too... they call it networking, I call it annoying netjerking & no I don't want your contact information. Basically I guess I'm saying I like my current friends, it doesn't matter that they are all over the place. I don't need a million acquaintances anymore. I don't need to feel popular or even liked. I don't care if you don't like me and I'm pretty good at seeing through the BS people that see other humans as resources to advance their own agenda, whatever it may be. Chances are I'm not going to bend over backwards for you if you don't take the time to actually get to know me. Maybe I'm just an A-hole? But at this point I don't really care. I love my life & don't need to surround myself with Machiavellian, fake people just to increase my friends on facebook. So I resent being called antisocial.... I see it as a calculated opportunity cost: it's a waste of time & resources dallying with people you'll probably never really get close with. It's much more efficient to allocate said time & resources to established relationships or educational endeavors. Maybe it's just the people here in Utah? sometimes when I accompany my amigos to these group functions I feel like I hit the flux capacitor & went back to high school (minus the whole awkward voice cracking hair in funny places everyone needs deodorant biz) so yeah, call me whatever you like but I have no desire to interact with people that are in their mid to late twenties but still act like a teenager in one of those high school musical movies. I guess it's cuz I'm oh so mature? yeah right I'll always be an immature idiot. It's more like I could give less a crap about being part of the scene/popular. It ain't quantity amigos it's quality... and Utah is severely lacking in the latter... I, on the other hand, am not.

-Grandpa Stanley


Sam and Livi said...

i feel ya!

Ruby Villain said...

Yeah, I don't get the whole, everyone loves to bash the people of Utah and generalize every person in the entire state into one big pool of self-serving, superficial jerks. That notion that the people of Utah suck is so so rampant and overdone. Get something else to get hung up on already (general, not you specifically). Perhaps your area is just lacking. Are you in Utah County? If so then yes, I will agree with your entire post. That place is full of the immature "scene".

Whittney and Ryan said...

Haha Well said grandpa Stanley! ( thank you for signing this post with that, it gave me a good laugh!) but back of the high school musicals movies they are the best!!!

Jessica Newby said...

You are an A-hole.

Nah, I feel ya bro.